Hi, Shakia.
Just my thoughts here. From what you’ve mentioned, I gather it's all about the sedentary lifestyle that's giving you all that unwanted weight. A change in perspective would be of great help. It's time you get up and about, start aiming for a healthier physique, get all that determination to trim down and not mind whatever other people will say about you.
Focus. Get back on diet and complement it with exercise. Take long, pleasurable walks. Go visit friends and attend cook outs. Bring your own chair if you must. Go out to the park with your kids and play with them. These may tire you out, but these activities release hormones that trigger feelings of happiness and stress-relief.
It’s important that you want this badly enough you’d be willing to be work for it, or this will just be another failed attempt.
You can also follow Dr. Oz’s quick work-outs at
http://www.doctoroz.com/videos/20-minutes-better-body
Cheers to a healthier you.